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Three Degrees: Battling Imposter Syndrome
Graduate students open up about finding their place in grad school.
For many graduate students, the biggest barrier to academic success isn鈥檛 the coursework鈥攊t鈥檚 the nagging sense that they don鈥檛 belong. According to the International Honor Society in Psychology, imposter syndrome is defined as 鈥渁 psychological phenomenon in which an individual feels that their accomplishments or successes were not achieved by merit but instead achieved through chance or luck.鈥
In this episode of Three Degrees,Towson University graduate students share their struggles with imposter syndrome and the unique ways they overcame it to achieve academic success.
Early struggles in STEM
For Hailey, a biology master鈥檚 student, feelings of self-doubt began in middle school. 鈥淲e took this sort of aptitude test where if you got a certain score, you would get placed in higher-level biology,鈥 she recalled. 鈥淚 didn鈥檛 score high enough, but I knew that鈥檚 what I wanted to do.鈥
When her teacher refused to let her join the advanced class, Hailey went directly to her high school counselor, who allowed her to enroll. Once in the class, though, her imposter syndrome really began to assert itself. 鈥淏y the time my senior year rolled around and it was AP biology, I still felt like I didn鈥檛 really have a place there,鈥 she said.
Those insecurities carried into Hailey鈥檚 undergraduate experience, where she often felt overshadowed by engineering and science majors. Her experience is unfortunately not uncommon. A study conducted by the International Honor Society in Psychology revealed that STEM majors and women experience more imposter syndrome than non-STEM majors and men, and in fact, female STEM majors reported the highest average imposter syndrome score when compared to all other groups.
Finding Confidence Through Real-World Experience
Imposter syndrome. It'll get quieter if you let it. And you have to surround yourself with people that are going through the same thing that can relate to you.
Hailey
A gap year working in environmental education helped Hailey regain her confidence. 鈥淚 felt like, yeah, I do have a place in the space of conservation and,鈥 she said. At Towson, her research on the microbiome of northern map turtles reaffirmed that sense of belonging.
These days, she feels better equipped to manage self-doubt. 鈥淚mposter syndrome鈥攊t鈥檒l get quieter if you let it,鈥 she advised. 鈥淵ou need to be open about it and you need to recognize, like you are in the position, like you are in grad school for a reason.鈥
A Psychology Internship Triggers Self-Doubt
It's so hard to do it by yourself in thinking like I'm alone in this feeling, but you don't have to sit with it by yourself, and you're not alone in this feeling.
Ash
For Ash, a psychology graduate student, imposter syndrome hit during an internship when they were counseling real clients. 鈥淢y first session with my client was talking about just major depressive disorder, where they can't get up, they can't eat. They feel like they're nothing,鈥 they recalled. 鈥淪o in that space, I just felt like, God, and I'm supposed to do something about this?鈥
Ash was far from alone in their experience. A quick Google search will bring up dozens of articles geared toward helping therapists overcome imposter syndrome during conversations with clients. And after struggling through some sessions while suffering from imposter syndrome. Ash realized that connection with other people was the key to managing those feelings. 鈥淚t鈥檚 so hard to do it by yourself, thinking 鈥業鈥檓 alone in this feeling,鈥欌 they said, 鈥渂ut you don't have to sit with it by yourself, and you're not alone in this feeling. Talking about it鈥hat's how you can fight it.鈥
Creativity and Imposter Syndrome
The creative industry is a hotbed for imposter syndrome. People like Viola Davis, Maya Angelou, Jodie Foster, Tom Hanks and Meryl Streep have all spoken openly about their struggles with it - and it makes sense. Whether you're auditioning for a role, sending a demo album to a record label, or submitting your work for publication, criticism and rejection are baked into the process. For Liz, a student in the professional writing program, feelings of inadequacy related to her creative work began to surface as she started to focus seriously on her writing.
鈥淚 had an experience once when I first started writing poetry. I think I was in my early 20s, and I showed it to my older brother and he was like, 鈥測ou're writing about these super serious things and I can't take you seriously because you're my little sister鈥濃t kind of fed into those insecurities that were already there, and so it took me a long time to trust other people with my work.鈥
Even as her confidence grew, self-doubt never fully disappeared. 鈥淭here鈥檚 the fear of failure, but also the fear of success,鈥 Liz explained. 鈥淲hen I do succeed, what if I can鈥檛 maintain that?鈥
Liz has since grown into her identity as a writer and even learned to call herself a poet. 鈥淎nytime I run into perfectionism, I remind myself鈥擨鈥檓 not trying to write something perfect. I鈥檓 trying to write something true,鈥 she said. Her advice to other creatives struggling with imposter syndrome is simple: 鈥淔ind the small things that you like in your work, the little instances that you're really proud of,鈥 she said. 鈥淚 know that the more that I write, the more that I practice, I feel the confidence growing in what I'm doing.鈥
Anytime I run into perfectionism, I remind myself鈥擨鈥檓 not trying to write something perfect. I鈥檓 trying to write something true.
Liz
Coping With Imposter Syndrome
Despite different fields and backgrounds, all three students agreed that imposter syndrome is best addressed by naming it, talking about it, and finding support.
Hailey emphasized the importance of community: 鈥測ou have to surround yourself with people that are going through the same thing that can relate to you,鈥 she said. 鈥淵ou need to have your circle.鈥
Ash encouraged students to trust themselves. 鈥淣obody said that I can鈥檛 do this,鈥 they said. 鈥淭he only person saying that is me鈥攐r that part of me that is the imposter syndrome. And of course, it's saying, 鈥淚 can't do this.鈥 That's this whole job, right?鈥
And Liz suggested small steps toward self-recognition. 鈥淲hat I'm getting in my head about not being good enough, I'll be like, 鈥渨ell, here are some of your successes,鈥 she said. 鈥淵ou can't keep moving the goalpost.鈥
For Towson graduate students鈥攁nd students everywhere鈥攖hose words may serve as a reminder that imposter syndrome doesn鈥檛 have to limit success.
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About the series
The Three Degrees podcast series dives deeper into the lives and experiences of Towson University graduate students, exploring what sets them apart 鈥 and more importantly, what brings them together.
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